I don’t know about you but my weekend was full. From the time I got off work on Friday night till just now as I climbed into bed. I always feel like I’m in over drive and therefore E has to follow suite and I’m starting to wonder if it’s unfair to him. I’ve been trying to read a few books (in the little free time I have) and both have me thinking. When will it stop?
The first..”Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Child“, a book that came highly recommended from some knowledgeable mothers, is making me realize that my desire for an active lifestyle might be happening at E’s expense. This book does a good job at explaining his sleep-wake cycle and I’m able to read it just like the book. Problem is that I’m not good at acting on it. I see the signs, he’s tired but the gyms child care is only available smack dab on his nap time. Tonight I’m feeling extremely guilty and am trying to figure out what to do. Which brings me to my other book..
“Balance is a Crock, Sleep is for the Weak” Just the title alone makes me think probably even more so than the content of the book. The content is a little quirky but the for me, there’s an underlying message. As moms, we’re always try to achieve the unattainable “balance” and I don’t know about you but I that I beat myself up when I let something slip because I’m still living under this false expectation that I can be everything to everyone when really what I should be is:
1. A mom to a beautiful baby boy,
2. A wife to a husband that works hard and
3. A family member and then EVERYTHING ELSE.
It’s tough. It is, I won’t be the first to tell you. But I’m going to have to start just living, and quite reaching for something that can’t be reached. Everyday, I’m going to wake up, assess the demands and decide what gets done and what doesn’t and try as I might to stick to it.
Something has got to give and it’s my job to decide what that is. It’s my job to decide for me, for E and my family and to date, I’ve been selfish in trying to achieve “balance”. My mantra from now on…”Just Live”.
What do you think?