The Most Perfect Memory

E,

In 16 years when you’re acting like a total teenager, I want to be able to go back and read this post about a moment we had when you were just one. 

Last night, as we always do, we got ready for bed, we brushed our teeth, read our book and had a little milk.  Then, like we have been doing recently, I let you cuddle up and we rocked for a little bit.  After a few seconds, you started talking.  I’m not quite sure what you were saying because it still sounds like gibberish to me but I’m telling myself that it was “mommy I love you”. 

Afterwards, you raised your head and even though it was dark in the room, you still managed to find my eyes and look directly into them and smile the most perfect little smile (it was such an old soul thing to do).  It made my heart melt.  You again told me you loved me in the cutest gibberish possible and leaned in for the biggest sloppiest kiss ever, right on my nose. I can still picture it.

I couldn’t help but giggle and that kicked off the next few moments.  In that time, we just looked at each other and laughed quietly.  I pretended to be asleep, you giggled and I couldn’t hold it in and broke.  You laughed some more.  You cuddled up on my chest, I pretended to be asleep again, you checked on my status, laughed and I broke again.  It was the sweetest laughter because you knew you should be asleep or getting there so it was very mellow quiet laugh.  It was a moment of pure enjoyment and bonding which I’ll never forget. 

It was definitely not a time to try to take a picture or record a video.  It was a moment just between you and me which we’ll always have. 

I can only hope as you grow you continue to have that sense of humor and sweet loving way you have.  It makes being your mom so enjoyable.

I love you Baby Mac
Mom