I realized something and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I realized I’m a compartmentalist. To be honest, I’m not even sure if that’s a word but it is now.
Being home with Allie today, just the two of us, I had plenty of time to workout..nothing crazy but some basic things that I knew wouldn’t upset my recovery. I put some thought into what that would little “at home” workout would be and then decided to go for it.
About 3 or 4 minutes into it, I was doing bridge lifts and I was already distracted. I just happen to look over at the kitchen and realize I hadn’t emptied the dishwasher yet. Argh! But I told myself to let it go and push forward. A couple more minutes went by and I was attempting to do some planks which I haven’t done in a while (I didn’t do any ab work during the later stages of my pregnancy) and I was planking, I started thinking about all the other stuff I wanted to do on the computer. Anyway, it was enough for me to abandon the little workout and get back to work.
I was frustrated with myself that I was weak and just let all the other distractions win out.
I was scared that maybe it was a sign that I’m not as committed as I think I am to getting my pre-baby fitness back.
I was nervous that I’m going to find myself in more of these types of scenarios in the coming weeks/months and because I can’t separate without physically compartmentalizing, I’m never going to be able to get “back into it”.
Basically it comes down to this.
I love my gym time, even though half time I end up doing workouts that I could easily do at home. I love the separation it gives me and I know that when I’m there, I’m there. I’m focused and energized (most of the time) by buzz of the gym.
I love my outside running time. Even the thought of doing that at home worries me (even though we don’t currently have a functioning treadmill). Will I be able to get lost in the run or will I find myself jumping off the treadmill because I just so happen to see my desk in the corner and it’s holding all the school work I have yet to get to.
I know we all talk about being flexible and doing what we can but I guess I’m just getting old and stuck in my ways. Not having the ability to step away and have specific time to dedicate to a workout or whatever the goal is going to be tough.
I know lots of you workout in the A.M. I envy you.
I know lots of you workout at home just fine.
I guess I’ll figure it out. I have to, there is no other choice. Running, stay fit is just who I am so I’m pledging now to get it together. Figure it out in a way that is realistic with our new “normal”.
What are your biggest challenges to staying fit..getting that run in, etc?