You know that feeling that sometimes sets in after you’ve accomplished a goal you’ve been working towards for a long time? It can sometimes feel like, dare I say it, depression?
Well, I think I figured out that must be what’s going on with me. Graduate school was two long years oh and by they way, somewhere in there I lost one of the people who was so instrumental in pushing me to get there and then stay there.
So when I graduated, I think I lost just one of those connections I still had with him. I lost a little piece of him. He slipped a little further away.
Not to mention school took up a LOT of time and added to everything else, it provided a much needed distraction during a very difficult time. I think what I’m starting to realize is that I’m not “over” the loss of my dad. I guess I won’t ever really be. The past two weekends have been exceptionally hard. He would’ve been so proud to see me graduate and he would’ve been even prouder to watch all 6 of his grandchildren playing together (3 of which he never got a chance to meet). It’s crazy that such joyous moments can bring pain.
I’ll pull out of this funk, I think. No, I know. But I would be lying if I told you everything is cookies and rainbows right now.
Thanks for listening…
nothing but big huge I GET THIS I GET THIS hugs flowing your way from California.
xo
Carla
Thanks for the hugs! That means alot.
Hang in there! Sending virtual hugs your way.
Thank you Nicole!
Awww…totally normal reaction, I’m sure. Big hug to you!
Thanks Amanda! 🙂
Big, big hugs my friend.
Thank you.
I am right there with you on the funk. I’m sure your postpartum hormones aren’t helping you either. Hang in there!!
Thanks Michelle. You’re so right about the hormones. It’s like a crazy womnan’s cocktail.
I get such bad post-race depression…I think it definitely could apply to the rush of adrenaline as grad school ends! I hope you feel better soon!! It’ll pass!
Thanks Ali!
Oh, hang in there, Katie!! You’ve had some MAJOR life events in the last year, and it’s natural to have a slump after a huge highlight (like birth and graduation!) Hope you start to feel better soon.
Thanks Laura!
Big hugs Katie! Things WILL get better. I know this.
Thanks! Your optimism is comforting!
I lost my mom unexpectedly when I was a few weeks pregnant with my first child 13 years ago. I still mourn the loss. Every birthday, every special occasion, every good and bad “Mom” moments I have. Hang in there. I know it can be really difficult.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It helps to know you’re not alone.
xoxox
I lost my dad over 5 years ago and he passed one month before his first grandchild. With 5 total this year, it makes me miss him and wish he could have been there for it all. I completely understand how you feel, as I go through those moments (especially when something big happens) and feel down. I always try to remember, not only is he now there to see the awesome times, he is helping me through on the other side get through the tough times. He’s with you, always, and smiling and playing with those babes in their sleep. Thanks for sharing and writing your blog, I have been reading for months but don’t comment often.