We all know it’s going to happen…things will change…life will lead us down different paths and depending on how big or how small, we will adjust.
Lately I feel like I’ve been going through a lot of little changes, self induced changes that I THINK are the right choices yet at the moment, I’m pretty unsettled about it.
Take, for example, changing gyms. I know, it doesn’t sound like a big deal, but to someone whose life use to revolve around this facility, I met my husband there, it is a community that I know and appreciate but it’s just not practical anymore. We went to our new gym Monday night for the first time and it’s shiny and new and clean and close and those are all great things but I like my gyms like I like my homes, kind of worn in…homey…like I belong there and right now this new gym just doesn’t have it.
Another change, starting E in preschool early. He has been in a home setting and has been extremely happy and so have I yet I know he needs to get use to structure and needs to socialize and start learning things that we just can’t teach him. He had his first day today and while I know it’s best, again, I’m just a little unsettled. He seems to be adjusting pretty well, it’s mama that’s not.
Finally, I’m learning, as painful as it is to say enough is enough. That while I want to do it all, and I do, it’s just not possible. It’s frustrating but so is feeling like you’re not fully committed to something that you claim to love. I’m being vague on purpose but the gist is that it’s time to take a few things off my plate and I guess I feel like I’m bailing, abandoning and it gives me a sinking feeling in my gut.
I know in the end these are all the right decisions but I just wish they came with the instantaneous feeling that solidified my decisions. It will come, it might be hindsight but maybe that’s enough.
Are you going through any change right now? How do you deal with change?
A lot of changing going on! I love change but that’s not to say it’s always easy. Most of what I’m going through is along the lines of personal growth and it can be tough to look at ourselves and acknowledge our faults and what needs to change. Working on being the best version of me 🙂
Trust your gut! You’ll know what’s right for you.
Lots of change going on. I love/hate change. It’s not always easy but sometime’s it’s what we need to move us in the right direction. As long as you are doing everything with a full heart I don’t think you can go wrong, you know what’s best for you and your family!
Karen @karenlovestorun
HUGE HUGE HUGE CHANGE HERE.
stressful and huge.
I’m in week 6 of a huge new job (there’s now a C at the front of my title) and finally get to move into my new place in my new city next week. I feel like I’ve been in a constant state of change for 18 months, and am really hoping I can stick here for a while.
Very much struggling with change right now. It happens. We will come out the other side having survived our experience and be stronger women for it. I keep wanting to intellectualize the change but I am just going to have to feel this one. Sending you a virtual *fist bump*.
Change helps us to evolve but is tough to swallow for sure!
Change with kids is often harder on the mama than the kid, it seems! I can definitely identify with your hesitations. And good for you for realizing you need to take some things off your plate!
i get this, more than you know. Change is good and hard and often needed
I can relate on lots of levels Katie, particularly about taking things off your plate. It’s hard when we are incredibly driven and want to do our best but also recognize that there are limits to what we can do. I have a hard time with change and this year has been full of them! And the kids? That’s a whole other story. They grow up so fast and they make me realize how quickly everything moves.
Most of the time I’m pretty good about embracing change, but it’s not always easy. Hope all your change start to feel real good soon. Hang in there. 🙂