If you asked me if I had a split personality, I would immediately say no but all it takes is one run to force me to rethink my answer.
When it comes to running, it seems that I live in two worlds…
- The Hare – the one where I’m super fast
- The Tortoise – the other one where I’m me
I think what’s so funny is that on any given day, I can select one of these story lines and be “that runner” but more often lately, I’m selecting the Tortoise. The honest reality is that I’m not sure why and I’m not sure if I’m OK with it.
I’m in a real weird time right now. I’m no spring chicken, I get it. Life’s obligations are continuing to stack up and add pressure so by the time it’s time to run, there’s a very big part of me that wants to create a stress-free environment and part of that includes excusing myself from feeling the need to achieve new speed goals. This is especially true when it comes to the half. My PR is probably six years old and sits just under the two hour mark. Every time I sign up for a half I consider attempting to hit it and then I realize right now, it would take a LOT of work and time that I don’t seem to have to get there. Is it impossible? No, but it’s falling further and further out of my reality.
The fact of the matter is that I still love running but the way I approach it seems to be changing. What’s the point to this? Well, I’m not sure I have one. I think I’m venting, and I’m hoping I’m not alone in this weird transitional place.
Same goes with blogging…there was a highly competitive energy I use to have around blogging but in the same way it’s happening with running, it’s happening with blogging.
I think it’s all about stress and perspective. The causes of stress comes in two forms…that you can control and that you can’t. My goal lately is to reduce stress where I can and these are two areas that are suppose to be fun so why am I stressing?
So while most of the day I’m forced to take the role of the Hare, I’ll happily opt for the role of the Tortoise when I can. See you on the trails!