I’m assuming for a minute that there’s no one on the other side of the screen. I’m using this as a personal diary entry to myself. Take from it what you will..
The fact is that no matter how much I feel like I have it all under control….I don’t.
No matter how much I think I have the answers to everything…I don’t.
I can’t work miracles.
I can’t make everyone happy.
I just can’t.
Life is full of challenges, big and small. (I’m learning this as I go). What I’m struggling with is not the “why” so much but the “how”. I’ve stopped asking “Why”…there’s no point to it. By the time I’m asking the question it’s too late.
Am I any less of a person because I can’t? Am I limited in my dimensions? Am I stuck? Is this as far as I go?
What I should be asking is how.
- How do I get past it?
- How do I not let it get to me?
- How do I make the best decision possible?
I’m frustrated. I’m trying to solve problems that don’t have any clear answers. I’m trying to make people happy that have very clear and differing objectives. I can’t win.
So what next? That’s the next answer I need.
Cryptic? Yeah, it is but it’s stream of consciousness and it’s REALLY what’s going on in my head. Just like you read it. I need some quiet time. Alone with my thoughts. I need to breathe.
Someone remind me to breathe…