I was thinking about all the different ways I was going to tell you….
- Should I lead with the silver lining?
- Should I whine and cry and tell you the “woe is me” story?
- Should I skip right to the facts?
I couldn’t decide so the video was the best way to get it all out of my head.
I’m still just shocked. Mostly because I’ve never had surgery and I honestly thought I was over reacting to what I was feeling. I fully expected him to reiterate what I kept telling myself….
“You’ve over-used it. Take some time off, ice it, rest it and you’ll be fine.”
The fact that I didn’t prepare myself for any other answer was probably naive of me but I guess I thought I was indestructible.
A day after hearing the initial diagnosis, mentally I’m coming to grips with the fact that I can’t run. The timing is good though because really I haven’t wanted to run much lately and it kind of feels good to have “permission” to switch gears.
I debated talking about it till I had a surgery date because there’s a part of me that’s still optimistic that they will give me the news that surgery isn’t needed. (Just let me live in my fantasyland for a little bit longer). But I’m that person that over shares. I’m that person that has to hear myself say it in order to formulate a plan and move forward. I’m that person that wants to share the journey and hope that it, in some way, helps someone else.
So what’s next?
I have an MRI early next week and the follow-up in a week. I’m hoping that, if surgery is the way to go, that I can get it done in mid November and start recovering through the holidays.
There’s the silver lining. I’m thankful for the timing of all this. It’s always hard to get it done this time of year. If I have to sit out, this is the best time to do it. I will be missing the St. Louis Track Club Half on my birthday (11/06) but I might still head down and cheer everyone on!
What about next year?
I’ve already scheduled a couple things in middle of the year that I need sometime to train for so the sooner the better. All indications right now are that I’ll be ready to go first part of the year.
So, I’m going to pull you along with me as I get through this. I’ll be posting some “real world” type personal reflections as we go along so make sure you’ve subscribed to my YouTube Channel. I’m such a flake on the blog posting the YouTube clips are a little easier to get to.
Thanks for all the kind words and support I’ve received. It’s this community that keeps me going and I’ll continue to lean on you and you can lean on me (well don’t lean too hard on my left side right now. I can’t guarantee anything. 🙂
Have you ever had surgery? How did you get through it?